Post by amongthefallen on Jan 28, 2023 17:15:11 GMT
discord: polaroidsandwildflowers #7049
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Post by amongthefallen on Jan 28, 2023 17:18:40 GMT
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RODERICK WHITEWOOD
"'Cause I'm a fucking mess sometimes, and I'll say what I don't mean just 'cause I wanted, or maybe I need it."
23 | Heterosexual | Single | Hunter | FC: Rudy Pankow
ABOUT. Roderick was the result of teen love, and it resulted in him being passed around for most of his youth. It wasn't until he was sixteen that he found a family that welcomed and accepted him. He was able to catch a fleeting glimpse of happiness, but all good things end–and his ended tragically. He'd skipped school and come home to a macabre. There was nothing left of his family, and he was back into the system until he was eighteen. Somewhere along the way, he stumbled across the hunters, and it made him realize what had really happened to his family. Vampires. An overwhelming hatred remains in his heart for them. His life has left him bitter, cynical, and somewhat reckless. His actions are fueled by deep anger, and it makes him lash out. It's something he's never been able to cope with. Lashing out is the only form of expression he knows, and he keeps people at a distance in fear that he might lose them. He can't afford to care. His heart just can't handle anymore loss. He channels everything he feels into hunting, and part of him believes that fighting and keeping his trauma at the back of his mind and near his heart is keeping the only form of family he ever knew alive. Letting them go, letting it all go would mean forgetting them and how wonderful they were. It would also let in the guilt that he didn't appreciate them enough, and he gave them a hard time because he was afraid that they might abandon him too. If he could go back, in a perfect world, he would say the right things and do better things. He'd make them proud. Maybe he wouldn't be so angry and disgusted with himself if he had. But life isn't perfect, and all there is to do is hunt and bury feelings in sex, alcohol, and cigarettes.